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m u s i n g s

It feels terrible to have to force yourself to sleep despite the fever and the prevailing sore throat, only to wake up to find that the results you've been waiting for online is not there. Not only that, they show you samples of results that scare you to hell's gate, then after a moment of realization, you're transported back to reality with a "Oh. Cheh."

But really, how does one explain how it feels to be surrounded by people that have been given hope, when you yourself have none? How can anyone feel better to "I'm sorry" and "Its going to be okay" when deep down you know, its not? I suppose that is the usual reaction and words spoken at a time like this but ironically, it does nothing but make things worse. People are such bad consolers, such terrible shoulders to cry on. We never know what to say and in return, no one knows what to say.

When all hope seems bleak, time passes by so slowly, as if to taunt you, or to laugh at you. I could very well imagine Time sipping tea, pointing at us with a black nail, and then chokes on his tea and exclaims, "Will you just look at that idiot pacing back and forth to pass time? Well just to spite him, maybe I'll move slower!" He then elicits a high pitched cackle as he proceeds to torment that poor soul.

Well, I feel like that idiot now.

p o s t a - l e v e l s

Wei Liang

You are such a meanie! Yes yes, I know I've gotten a little porky over the last two semesters, but hey, I've my own problems to go with it okay?? So please be nice and at least acknowledge that I've lost weight (I lost 4 kg in a month okay!) A word of advice to you, don't be so straight forward, you'll never attract girls at this rate. Its cheating, but girls do like to be complimented, so it won't hurt if you did it once in a while. But all in all, you were a good friend, and I just want to thank you for your honesty (though honestly, it hurt sometimes). Despite everything, you did cheer me up with your weird antics and you make a good conversationalist =) I remember all those times in Ms. Aw's class, I was talking to you when I should have been paying attention..... Ah well, if I don't do well in Stats 2, I know who to blame ;)

Tatsuki
I know you left in Sem 2, but still, you were part of my A-Levels experience (gosh, I wonder if I'll ever get bored of saying that). I think that afro hairstyle fits you pretty well actually haha. You have always been an inspiration to me, I mean, you literally reek of discipline and everytime I look at you, I see that imprinted on your forehead. Don't get me wrong, its not a bad thing, on the contrary, its a very good thing! I wish I had that kind of determination and discipline =/ You're multi-talented and everytime you sing, you never cease to amaze me. You remind me of Jason, only that you're Japanese and you don't scare me as much. I wish you all the best in IMU =) You're a really sweet guy, Tats. I miss you.

Suet Wei
You know what's the one thing I admire most about you? Its the fact that everytime I see you, you always have something positive to say about me, or the people around me that you meet. I've never heard anything negative coming from you before, which goes to show that you're a very optimistic person and at the same time, you help build people's confidence and self esteem. Even by just a little, you made that difference. I would know because you have done exactly that for me. There were times when I was feeling down but you brightened up my day by just a simple "You look great today." The sincerity in your tone was what made it special, and for that, I owe you a big thank you. =)

Evangeline
"Labuan? The little island?" *gestures with hand* Seriously, I'll never forget that. I think the next time I meet you, I'd still tease you about it then. Smarty pants, that's younger than me.... Its people like you that make me feel stupid sigh. But oh well, its okay, I like you so I won't spite you for that =P Good luck for all your future undertakings =)

Alex Cheah
You! See lah, I was so busy looking for you to drag you to the dance floor to make sure you ask her for a dance so that you won't regret it later on, that I forgot to take a photo with you. All your fault. Well, now you have to live with no regrets because really, I did try. Try to eat more veges okay? I know they taste like crap but I don't want to see you having gout anymore la, you're only 19! On another note, you have the weirdest sleeping position I've ever seen before haha. I still can't believe you manage to catch some sleep through all that ruckus, you're amazing lah.

Paik Hwa
I still remembered during the ball last year, I was like following you around like crazy, and then you were staring at me so intently when I was putting on my make up. It was uber weird, but in the end I helped you put on some as well. Oh and by the way, I was walking through OU with some of my friends and we stumbled into a shop that sells poison green nail polish and my friend put it on me. It reminded me of you, but I think I know why you liked that colour. Its striking and not too bad actually. Haha, go us weirdos...?

Bocky
I found out that Berlin is the capital of Germany, not Frankfurt lol. I think all the studying must have killed our brains for a while. Thanks for listening to me when I was confused and in doubt. You helped give me the courage to do something I probably wouldn't have done otherwise, and I don't regret it, and I doubt that I ever will, because it has taught me to be stronger, if not a little wiser. For that, I thank you.

Lai Yuen
Well, I think that meeting at the bus stop during our very last lesson would be the last time I'm ever gonna see you ever again. I never even caught a glimpse of you during the exams, which is a really sad thing. AND ITS YOUR FAULT FOR NOT COMING FOR THE BALL! AND YOU STILL HAVEN'T TOLD ME WHO YOU LIKED! YOU PROMISED! YOU SAID AFTER A-LEVELS! IT IS NOW! OH HOW YOU BREAK MY HEART... No lah, I'm kidding la. I just miss you because I never had a chance to say goodbye properly. kümmern sich selbst und hoffentlich treffen wir uns irgendwann einmal (I hope I got that right you tell me you're the one learning German).

A - L e v e l s B a l l 2 0 0 9

I remember studying like crazy and wishing that exams would be over. When they were finally over, the first thing I thought to myself was freedom, well and prom. And the week before, I spent it frantically searching for a dress because I was afraid I couldn't find one in time. But thankfully I did. And now that prom is over, I feel... lost. Like I'm not sure what the next step is, I'm not sure what to do. I suppose that I need the break to chill out and think of my next move. All in all, the whole A-Levels experience and even the prom night would be something that I'll never forget.

Pia
Just went to get our hair done. Yes, I know I'm grinning in a weird way, but don't ask why because I'm not quite sure myself...

Us again, ready for the night.

You've always been very cruel to me, making fun of me just because I'm vertically challenged (implied or otherwise). And for that, I'll never let you off for puking on me. But its okay, I forgive you because you've been a wonderful friend to me ever since the beginning of my A-Levels journey in late Feb. Thanks for being the person who listens to me ramble about silly things and also telling me about loads of things that I would have been ignorant about otherwise. Its sad to know just when we've started to get closer, A-Levels has come to an end and I probably won't see you so often anymore. But all in all, you've been an encouragement to me and you've made this 1 and a half years of my life a wonderful journey. At any rate, I wish you all the best in your future undertakings (and try not to vomit on anyone okay? Not many are as forgiving as me =P)

Nathalie
You look stunning as usual. Well, I really missed those times when we would see each other every other week in church and stuff. We used to talk quite a fair bit and I enjoyed every conversation we've had. Drifting apart is always painful, but I suppose that change is inevitable and we would go our seperate ways anyway. But I just want you to know that despite that, you were a really good friend to me and I was really blessed to be given the chance to be your friend. I miss you loads, and God bless you in every step you take.

Tan
I don't know where to begin with you. I guess I owe you a really big thank you for taking the time to teach me the externalities curve for Economics. If it wasn't for you, I doubt I would've gotten an A for Unit 2. For some reason, the most vivid memory I have of you is during a Chemistry class in Sem 1, when we were scolded by Ms. Pang for talking too much in class and she said to you "Yuan Xiong, you very noisy, go jump off the building!" Sorry, but I don't think I will ever forget that. I've had a great time in A-Levels thanks to you. You really brighten up my day with your antics, whether you realised it or not. And just in case you didn't know, you were my closest guy friend in college =)

Wai Chuan
The way we met has to be the weirdest way two people can meet. I think. I don't know, it was really awkward for me to dance with you that night, but I guess it was worth it because I got to know you =) I remember your magic tricks in the library. Real silly, but it made us laugh anyway. You're a really nice person, and I'm glad to have known you. Oh, and try not to get into another car accident okay?

Ee Ling

Amelia Chan
I'll always remember you as this crazy, bubbly girl with super awesome shoes. Thanks for all your lit notes that I photocopied without you knowing =P

Ms. Aw
My stats teacher! I don't think you'll ever stumble across this, but I just wanted to say a big thank you for your effort and time in teaching and in answering all the questions that I had. I hope I can get a good grade for Stats 2 despite the fact that I lost 14 marks from a silly mistake.

Ruthra, Ka Chuan

Ruthra: I still hate you for not coming to do your ticketing shift with me last year. You left me there all alone, in the cold while you were off gallivanting somewhere. But I suppose I should also thank you for not coming, because if you had, I wouldn't have been alone and I wouldn't have been approached by the Jan intake people and certainly would not have made friends with them. So, thank you?

Ka Chuan: Aiyoh, just forget her lah, there are more than enough of fishes out there for you to choose from! But yes, I hope you'll find your girl soon enough. You're always never around for that one class that I share with you so I actually hardly know you even though we do talk quite a bit. Oh and by the way, you still owe me lunch ;)

Joey, Yi Lin, Hwee Ching

Joey: You always make me laugh. The way you talk, the things you say, its just funny (don't worry in a good way). I hope I would be able to see you again soon enough. I remember on the last day of classes before the exams started, you got me into the cam-whoring mood, which is rare because not many people can do that.

Yi Lin: You ah, I don't know what to say. Thanks for listening to me when I was emo and down, and thanks for giving me the reassuring hugs and encouragement that I really needed at times. You're a really good friend and I'm glad to have known you. And you know, you make a better lab partner than Snaim ever will!

Ching: Girl, you're awesome. You're a really cheerful and confident person and it seems like nothing in the world can ever dampen that. Thanks for being the best Econs buddy anyone can ever have. You're really sweet and you're always cheering me up regardless whether I'm down or not. Thanks =)

Kimberly, Tan, Kelvin

Kim: You're my best buddy in college, you know that? Everytime I have a problem, you would be the first person I look for, though I can't really find you all the time. I've had a really great time in A-Levels because of you. You were one of the first girl friends I had, and I'm really grateful to have you because I was so afraid that I wouldn't be able to find a friend that I could find consolation in when I was down, or just someone that I could easily click with. Over the gerai matter... well, I suppose its safe for me to say that you can do better lah. You're really smart and you're really pretty and you're a really warm and friendly person, so don't let anyone tell you otherwise!

Kelvin: I'm a little disappointed that you weren't able to convince her to come to the ball with you, but I hope you had fun anyway. You're this really shy person although you have a tendency to say things that can be quite hurtful sometimes, but I don't think you meant any harm. You're a really good person, I can tell, and you're genuinely warm towards people regardless if they are to you or not, and that's a really rare feat. I mean, if I were you I wouldn't care about being nice to people that I don't like. But thankfully you're not like me. I really admire that about you, so keep it up okay?

Paik Qinn
I have to get this off my chest, its now or never. PQ, you're damn annoying la! Haha, I'm kidding, (to some extent) but you know what, I really admire you sometimes. You're loud (and annoying) but there is never once I don't see you grinning or smiling (with the exception of this picture of course). And despite the fact that you seem to be quite a party animal, you never cease to surprise us with super chunted results. That's one feat that not many people have so cherish it yeah?

Paul
You're loud. Like, really loud. And you have this weird... fetish(?) for Alex Kua. And you like to hug people like Dexter and Eugene... You scare me with that sometimes, but all in all, you're a really good guy, and you're fun to be with. Thanks for agreeing to fetch me the other time although it was quite last minute and random. Haha, and Paul, I'll never let you beat me in poker, that's a promise!

Amani
Stop gaming and get out of the house lah! You know, I really admire you sometimes. You have this really fiery attitude about you. You never care what others say about you and you have the kind of self confidence that no one can shake. It has always been something that I wished I had. In that sense, I guess you can say that you're my role model =) So do keep in touch, and hopefully, I'd be able to catch some of that fiery passion =)

Hui Yi
All I remember about you was that I was practically screaming at you "Hui Yi, cannot! You must be confident! You must be optimistic, BE OPTIMISTIC! OPTIMISTIC YOU HEAR ME?! NO SAYING CANNOT, MUST SAY YES I CAN!" I'm sorry, I can be quite abrasive sometimes, but I hope I did get the message across haha. And don't let anyone tell you that you cannot do it, not even Mr. Lim.

Najwa, Alex Kua

Najwa: Ah Naj, thanks for teaching me Ginrami and getting me addicted to it as well. I wish you all the best in achieving your dreams to practice law, and make sure when you do, don't accept bribes okay? I'll test you =P

Jon Khor, Jessica

Jon: There's this japanese actor called Oguri Shun that you resemble. Well, not really la, just a little when he acted in Hana Yori Dango. I remember seeing you for the first time in Eugene's party last year (before you cut your hair and made it short) I practically shouted "RUI!" Yeah...

Angie
PROM QUEEN~ Gah, you looked stunning tonight, so I guess being late paid off. You are an inspiration to me. You've got the looks and you've got the brains, and you're like this complete package that every girl wants, including me. You're a really great dancer, and you're not a bimbo lah. You don't have fat thighs either. Please, don't listen to Fuxuan, or he will drive you insane!

Pia, Sze Yin

Michelle, Jamie

Michelle: I think I've told you this before, though I can't really recall. The first time I met you in Lit class, I was really scared at you because I said hi, and you gave me this really scary stare that kinda said, "Whatcha lookin' at punk?!" But well, when I started talking to you later, I found out that you were actually very friendly despite the first encounter haha. Opps? But yeah, you're really friendly and you're a good conversationalist, which goes to show that I shouldn't judge a book by its cover. You're awfully smart and witty, and I really like that about you. I wish you all the best in becoming a judge and eradicating all the injustice in the world. No pressure yeah? =)

Jamie: Thanks for all your advice and thanks for all the time you spent listening to me rant about how upset I felt about what happened and such. You have a heart of gold, Jamie, really. You're the nicest and sweetest person I know. You're funny and bubbly and just pretty much everything a girl could ever dream of being. Despite the hard times you encountered in the past few months, I think you took it really well. You managed to stay strong and such, which I think is a real achievement, considering all that's happened. I'm really proud of you girl, and I'm even more proud to have been able to be your friend =)

Jamie

Leyshani

I hope you're feeling better now, and not sick anymore. But yeah, you were always cheerful and always singing to yourself when you have headphones on, haha. Good ol' times. I can't remember like specific happenings and such but just mainly the times we had in class during the first sem or so and a bit from the last sem. Ah, I wish I had the chance to know you better. Well, its not to late to start either right?

Amelia Ng, Wei Wei, See Ling

Amelia: Eh, please don't go and find another girl friend okay, or I'll be very, very depressed. Haha, I hope Jackson is okay with sharing you with me =P But yeah, thanks for listening to me grumble about the stuff in my life and thanks for taking the time to teach me math and stuff, I really appreciate everything you've done for me. You're really smart and cheerful (but a bit lame also...) and well, let's hope our plans of joining a dance class materialises lah! =)

Wei Wei: If I was given a chance to copy something from you, it'll be your handwriting. You know how much I love it. Its so neat! Haha, well, I wish you all the best in your future undertakings. You're smart and hardworking, and it'll take you to many places.

See Ling: Another smarty pants. What do your parents feed you people lah seriously. I think you look really good with permed hair, or just wavy, it frames your face very well. Well, I don't know if I'll be seeing you around anymore, but I suppose if we ever do, please don't let it be on the dance floor okay?

Amelia Ng, Arun

Arun: You have boobs! Haha, I'm looking at your spongebob photo in the yearbook. Its really, ah... well taken, I must say. Well, Arun, I think the only thing we have in common is that your tie really matches the colour of my dress.You have always been friendly towards me and helping me when I was having problem in maths and such, and for that I thank you. Well, I hope you get to become the lawyer you've always dreamed of, though again, I still don't know what you're doing in the science stream.

Hilmy, John Khor, Wilkin

You guys looked awesome that day. John, I don't know why you were feeling so emo then, but I hope you're feeling better =) Hilmy, I just realised, where's your girlfriend? Wilkin ah Wilkin, I don't know what to say about you. Haha, you three are crazy, but in a very fun way. Thanks for making me feel welcome in your class even though I was some strange outsider =)

Rika

Ganesan
Aiyoh, why do you look so scary? Well, buddy, I can see you've lost weight, and you're looking real good =)

Nisha

Yvonne, Salena, Shalini, Rebecca, Jessicaa

Salena, Yvonne

I so love your hair, Yvonne, now I feel like I want a hair dresser for a boyfriend too haha

Chee Ler

Esther, Kah Yan, Choh Ying, Kim

Ah all you smarty pants further math students. Ah, I'll miss you guys loads. Esther, if Kentrick ever mistreats you, just give a call and I will be on your side. Kah Yan, take care of my used-to-be-but-no-more teddy bear, Hong Shen okay? Casey, haha you're a really sweet girl, a bit blur at times, but nice nonetheless. This is the first time I'm seeing you in a dress, all dolled up, you look fabulous.

Hong Shen
TEDDY BEAR! You have grown so much since the beginning of A-Levels. When I first met you, you were this really shy and really cute guy, and now you're all grown up with a girl friend and all. *Cries* I'm so proud of you. I wish you all the best in your future undertakings and also your relationship with Kah Yan. Make sure I'm invited to your wedding okay.

Wei Chun, Christina

I really like your dress, very hot. You guys make a really cute couple and I hope things work out between the two of you. If you guys get married, make sure I'm on your list of people to invite okay?

Kevin, Ru Jin

Adrian

You can stop hitting me everytime you see me okay? Thanks so much for photocopying the past year stuff for me. If I get an A for my maths, it'll be because of you =) And is it just me or you wore a similar looking outfit last year...?

Eugene
Prom King eh? My son, please behave yourself okay? If you ever take Maths again, please don't ask me to teach you, you're a terrible student haha. I'm kidding lah. But really, you're a really nice guy and there's not once where I've seen you angry at someone before. You really know how to encourage me when I'm feeling down and I guess I owe you a big thank you for convincing me to join Explosions. I had a really great time and I'll never forget it.

Dat Han
Guy-who-has-the-same-coloured-and-same-sized-girl-slipper-from-Giant-as-me. Roar, why are you so smart?! You know, you're a guy with a heart of gold, and you are really sweet and funny. I only wish I had known you earlier (so I can make use of your brain and make you my tuition teacher!) but I'm glad to have known you anyway, no matter how short the time.

Hui Ling

Alex Kua
Yes la, I'm taller than you! Even if I'm cheating, so what?! Haha, but yes, I wanted to put the picture of you sleeping in the bathtub here, but I didn't, so say thank you >:( I wish you had an Irish accent instead of a Scottish one though =( But yeah, I don't know if you'd start taking my advices, but please zip up! Hmm.... You look like you did here. But yes, don't drink so much lah!

Isabelle
Belle Belle, if ever I need a study partner, I'll never call you, but if I need someone to cheer me up or if I need some fun, I'll come looking for you. Honestly, I've never seen you frown before, and I don't think many people have either. You're always so bubbly and cheerful its hard to be sad around you. That's one thing that I really admire about you. Another is that you're a real guy magnet (or stalker magnet), which is understood I suppose, because you're so friendly with everyone and you're hot (jealous lah). I hope you get the results you need to bring you to places that you dream of going =)

Jason
Ugh, your speech still sort of lingers in my mind and depresses me everytime I recall it. Well, if anything you depress me all the time. You need to cheer up and stop being so spiteful. But well, you're really smart and queer at the same time, you scare me sometimes (especially when you start playing a knife like that in class!) but at the same time, you're like a little kid to me simply because you're one of the few people that I can pat on the head. Though it does feel weird that you come across as a small kid... Ah you're a mystery. Well Jason, life is slow dying.

Pon!
Grandson number 1. You know, the only difference between you and Kua that night was the fact that he wasn't wearing a cross. Ah, I hope you get the grades you want so that you can go to the places you want and achieve all that you can.

Daryl
Why are you standing so far away from me? I promise I won't eat you =( You know, you remind me of Shia LaBeouf. I think its the goatee and the emo hair, as Dexter would put it. But hey, I think you looked really good in the ball and thank you for putting in the effort to wear a suit because I would've beat you to pulp if you came in jeans and sneakers. Ah, yes, Grandson number 2. You make a terrible one, I hope you're not so mean to your real grandmother. At any rate, I wish you all the best in your future undertakings!

Eddie
I think I'll remember you as the 'Shiny Boobs Guy' from now on. Haha, I'm kidding lah. You're a really good friend but a terrible listener. You're smart and lame, but real funny at times. And you always help pull me up when I'm feeling down with your crazy antics. Thanks, I guess. I realised if it wasn't you who convinced me to come for A-Levels, none of these wonderful things would've happened to me, and I owe you a really big thank you for that. Shit happens, I know, but hey, we all learn to move on and by the looks of tonight I think you might have. I'm really happy for you. Keep in touch okay?

Kenny
I've always wanted to learn how to juggle 3 balls and I'm glad I met you because now I know! Thanks for being such a gentlemen to fetch me back last year although you didn't even know me then. You're a really wonderful guy and all the best in your future undertakings! And my better looking pictures are always with you... wonder why.

Amelia Ng, Michelle, Kim

Pia, Debbie

Tze-En

Michelle
You're one crazy girl, that's for sure. I remember the last chem class we had and we were outside talking about boob size and all. Don't worry la, its not about size, its about quality. I think. Anyway, I'd still see you around I suppose. Will you be my sister-in-law or cousin-in-law or what if they do get married??

Kim, Yohanan, Nik, Yew Weng, Hyqal

Yo: Yo! Thanks for listening to me whine and making me feel better and what not. You're a really nice guy and I appreciate all that you did for me. And by the way, no they did not forget you, they missed a whole page, so it was the printing people's fault, the A-Levels people did not forget you, and I certainly will not either =)

Nik: I had this one photo of you somewhere when you were in Form One or Form 2 and haha, you were short, chubby and so cute!! And now, look at you, towering over me and what not. Its seems like such a short time but we've come a long way since high school. I never imagine you doing further math actually, but I suppose you have your way of surprising people. At any rate, keep it up, Chelayu =)

Yew Weng: The one thing I'll never forget about you is how stretch your skin is. Ah, I think I'll miss pinching your cheeks and pulling it far far away. You're very smart, really, I don't know how you do it. Well, all the best in everything!

Hyqal: Haha, you're crazy. Really. That's all I can say about you.

Ben, Fu Xuan, Jason, Daryl, Sean, Dexter, He Hui, Alex Kua

Fufu: Thanks for helping me do the video thing. I'll miss you Jell-O shots so you either have to make them for me on a regular basis, or you have to teach me how to make it. I hope that everything works out for you, and hopefully, I'll be at the airport, seeing you off in August =)

He Hui: Don't be so emo la okay? Cheer up and look at the bright side of things, or else you'd turn out like Jason or worse. Things will work out for you one day, so meanwhile, smile and be happy lah.

Eugene and Angie
Prom King and Prom Queen dance.

Dexter and I.

Well, A-Levels is officially over. It makes me feel sad to think that I won't be seeing so many after this. But even so, you guys have made my A-Levels experience a blast =)

I T ' S A L I VE !

Exams are over. Finally.

So it happens that I was walking from Low Yat to Times Square on the way to scout for a dress when I encountered this lala dude, who passed me a pamphlet.

"Miss ah, hi, take tis."

So I took it, thinking it was one of those advertising pamphlet these sort of people always give out. As I began to walk away, the guy stopped me.

"Miss ah miss, this we have puromotion. If you open get this colours (he then shows me a list of colours available) you get discount in Jaya Jusco when you go shopping."

"Err... okay." I tear open the thing and match the colour on it with the list he has. "Err, its not here."

Blink. "Ohmigosh! MISS! YOU WIN SUPECIAL PRIZE!" (jumps up and down with glee, literally)

"I did?"

"Yesh yesh! Okay, I give my number and address of main office. You go dere and get bahcode then you see which prize you get from this list. First pwize is Toyota kar, and last pwize is RM 5000! Make sure you tell them is me. I will get khormisson. Must go today ah, today last day already oh."

So, I took it and thanked the guy. Wow, I thought to myself, his name is Sky. But I was a little skeptical about the whole issue. The address was at Kuchai Lama, and that place is a little... dinghy for my taste. So I called Dad, and he told me to be careful if I go. So alright, I decided I'll go.

Upon reaching, Tofu and I walked for about an hour or so looking for the place, and we called Sky twice to make sure we were at the right place.

"Okay, I'm at 10/116B, how do I get to Starr Healthcare? (that's the name of the main office)

"Ah, wait wait, my Ingurish not good. You speak my fwen.... Hello? Okay, you see KK *muffle*? Then opposite got 7 Eleven? That same row. You go there, you find it."

Right. So off again we went. Finally, after almost giving up, we found it. Small little lot, and very dubious looking. Well, we were here anyway so may as well give it a shot. So up we went to the second floor, peeped into the place, popped my head into the office and asked "Is this Starr Healthcare?"

It was. So we were invited in and what greeted us was loud techno music. Okay, odd. This lady approached us and we were briefed about the whole thing. Her English was only slightly better than the idiots who gave me the pamphlet thing.

"Okay, so here is the numbers of the prize... bla bla bla."

"Okay, so err, what are the terms and conditions for this?"

Blank stare. "Terms and conditions? I dunno what you min."

"Ah.... No strings attached right?"

Blink. "Ah, no, no. Don't have."

"Okay. So what's the process like?"

"Yeah, okay, what you must do is you prepare RM 1200 for transport cost, advertising cost stuff like that. Then give us serial number of the cash to show us you have the money then we will scan your paper and see what prize you get then give you prize. After you get the prize only you pay us money."

"Ah okay. Is it okay if we pay by cheque instead?"

"Cannot no cheque, we don't take cheque. Must cash because if you win money prize we give by cash also."

Yeah right. "Okay, I just want to ask, if lets say we prepare the money and have our prizes scanned, and we so happen to not like what we got, could we by any chance reject it?"

Blink blink. "No you cannot rejek the prize."

"Ah right. If that's the case then err, I think I'd do without it. Thanks anyway."

So there you go. That was a very brief account of what happened. Good way to learn how to handle scams I think, but a very pointless journey and what a waste of time. So peeps out there, if you ever find yourself in a similar position (especially if the prizes are damn good and the main office is off in some funny area like Kuchai Lama), be smart and say no. Don't be gulliable (like poor me) or greedy (guilty) or you'd probably end up in my shoes or worse.

On other note, while I was coming home from my cousin's wedding dinner at night, at the junction where I'd normally use to turn into my housing area, there were many cars and people crowding around. We peeked a little and saw a very bad wreckage that involved two motorbikes and a Vios. I was there just in time to see the police van come to remove the bodies. What I thought was blood on the ground initially was actually petrol as the wreckage had caught fire right after the impact, killing both the motorcyclists.

The wreckage is still there now and after seeing that, it acts as a painful and scary reminder that I should enjoy life to the fullest. Cliched? Yes well, its only true.

s i l v e r l i n i n g s i n t h e c l o u d

“That's why I began doing makeup in the first place: I was hoping that through helping people see the beauty in themselves, I could try and find it in me.”

-Kevyn Aucoin-

Thanks Petra. Love you loads girl!
*hugs and kisses*

w r i t e r ' s b l o c k

My blog is dying and I have absolutely no idea what to talk about. Or write about. Or blog about. Ah, which ever goes. So I decided to write about the writer's block I'm having right now. Its annoying isn't it, to have something to talk about but you have no idea how to deliver it or perhaps you need to write about something but your head stopped generating ideas. I remember once writing an English essay with a writer's block. Now, that rarely happens simply because its a high school English essay question, I mean, how hard can it possibly get? But I don't know, for some reason, I couldn't even think of a starting line. So I began with the classic "Once upon a time, there lived a....".

I think all the creativity my brain can muster has been used up to generate funny dreams that don't make sense (but then again when have my dreams ever made sense anyway... or anyone's for that matter). Honestly, I mean how do we even end up dreaming about things like being running away for your life and yet your body moves like its been put on slow-mo but everything else moves as normal and that creature/monster/stalker/crazy person is catching up real quickly from behind.

But anyway back to the writer's block. Frankly, its okay to have a writer's block every now and then, or almost all the time, but the funny part is that it only ever comes when I need to pass up a written assignment, a report about something, update on my barely-alive blog and especially during exams. That is so frustrating. You wrack your brain, you search in every nook and corner for some idea, any idea, that may or may not help you and in the end, you either end up with the would-not-help-at-all part or you just end up not writing anything at all or like in my case, I just end up rambling. Like now.

Ah well, would you look at that. I guess there was something to write about after all. =)

brand new world

Her footsteps sounded silently as she walked along the corridor. She reached her destination, and felt almost as if every eye staring at her could see right through. She felt vulnerable, intimidated and scared. Head cast down, she took her seat, those cold eyes never left her. Many days passed as she silently went through, not daring to look anyone in the eye, when suddenly, an extended hand came into her view. She gazed up and saw a figure of a girl, very much like her, with an innocent twinkle in her eye. She beckoned. She gazed down at her hand once more and with a slight tremble, took it.

They passed their days talking about everything under the sky, from studies to clothes, from movies to boys; they were inseparable. But things were slowly changing. The cord that once tied them together began to fray, becoming thinner and thinner, this she realised on one bitter morning. Desperately, she clung on to the other end of the cord, in hopes that it can still be mended with a little marmalade or some glue perhaps. Soon it dawned upon her that no matter how tightly she held on, the cord now became a mere string, that would snap with any little tension.

She decided to let go, and though the string remains intact, it was almost as if it never was there to begin with. Everything has changed, and she remains stagnant. But no matter how much she tries, it never works. She looks up at the gloomy gray sky that was once blue, and as the rain fell, so did her tears. Her heart ached for what was. But she knows, it would never be the same again.

She turns away and enters a new world; one filled with strangers, strange sights and sounds, unfamiliar grounds, nothing to remind her bitterly of what was. She was afraid to start over again, oh, she was afraid. But she is left with no choice but to go forward, and as she takes another step into this new world she now inhabits, the melancholic melodies of the past dimmed, and is no more. She looks around, this time, no one even gives her a second glance. She peers down at her feet and begins to tear. Then she saw, a hand, with a peach coloured tissue. She looked up and saw a gentle smile and laughing eyes. She gazed back at the hand, shook her head and withdrew.

Friendship is a game that requires two to play,
and when one is gone, the other is left with no playmate.
I can no longer hear the sounds of laughter and the songs of joy,
I can only hear the resentment of a friendship lost and forgotten.
I no longer remember the happy memories,
but what's left is the bitterness in which it ends.

I ' m n o t y o u

Who am I?

It seems like I can never get past that question. Faces around me blur as I find myself time and again trying to be in their shoes. I'm such a wannabe that words fail to describe me. Is it because I've yet to discover what truly defines me? Its sad really, I have so much to say, but nothing ever gets out. Not because I don't want to say anything, but because I don't know how. I'm a sucker when it comes to expressing my feelings. I'm suffocating, overwhelmed by these emotions that never cease to build up.

Oh there is so much I want to tell you, so much I want you to know,

of my hopes, my fears, my aspirations, my dreams, my successes, my failures,

my everything.

I'm really such a fool to think that I can be anyone else but myself. I try my very best to love me as I am, to accept my flaws and whatever merits I may have, but oh man, how miserably I fail. I look at those around me and I instantly get envious because they all possess something I don't, something that I would most certainly kill for. I for one, really admire those who can be really comfortable in their skin, because I can't.

Why is it that I can't see my own good stuff and yet I'm constantly digging a deeper hole of depression by trying to fit into other people's shoes when I know I obviously won't fit a size 12 when I'm a 7?

Jack of all trades, master of none.

If I were to describe myself in seven words, that would be it. Its really funny actually, how one can seem to do almost everything, but only ever halfway. No matter how hard I try, I never seem to get things right. People around me tell me I'm gifted, but I'm sorry, I don't see it. No, I don't see it at all.

Which confuses me. See, I was talking to a friend whom I've not spoken to in a very long time. It was a good chat but what surprised me most was when she said, "I wish I could be like you." Here I am, wishing I could be someone else entirely other than me, and you wish to be me? Well, sweetheart, you got your wish alright.

I'm not you, my close friends, I'm not you, my acquaintances, and I'm definitely not you, a passerby on the street. But I wish I could be like you. Why? I'd like to find out too, but unfortunately, only God would know. But one thing I know for sure, and I'll repeat myself infinitely till I'm finally convinced: I'm not you.

l e s s o n s l e a r n e d

1. Buffer solution must always be calculated at equilibrium.
2. Further trigonometric identities isn't as easy as first perceived.
3. Frankenstein may just be an easier book than Things Fall Apart.
4. Never follow Malaysian road signs; they are so misleading.
5. Always take the road you know, even if its a longer road.
6. Most Malaysian traffic lights are very biased.
7. Maxis Broadband never ceases to PMS on me.